When​ ​she​ ​turned​ ​80​ ​years​ ​old,​ ​the​ ​grandmother​ ​of​ ​my​ ​good​ ​friend,​ ​Gwenie,​ ​invited​ ​her  ten​ ​grandkids​ ​to​ ​tell​ ​her​ ​in​ ​a​ ​note​ ​what​ ​they'd​ ​like​ ​to​ ​have​ ​from​ ​her​ ​house,​ ​when​ ​the​ ​time  came​ ​for​ ​her​ ​things​ ​to​ ​be​ ​divided​ ​up.​ ​​ ​To​ ​a​ ​one​ ​these​ ​ten​ ​grandkids​ ​love​ ​Grandma​ ​Macy  and​ ​would​ ​never,​ ​ever​ ​want​ ​her​ ​to​ ​think​ ​them​ ​greedy​ ​or​ ​demanding.​ ​​ ​And​ ​to​ ​a​ ​one,​ ​each  and​ ​every​ ​one​ ​of​ ​them​ ​asked​ ​for​ ​that​ ​special​ ​hand​ ​tool​ ​she​ ​had​ ​in​ ​her​ ​kitchen​ ​for​ ​slicing  potatoes​ ​into​ ​waffle​ ​fries.​ ​​ ​It​ ​was​ ​#1​ ​on​ ​all​ ​ten​ ​lists!​ ​​ ​

Grandma​ ​Macy's​ ​feelings​ ​were​ ​just​ ​a  little​ ​hurt​ ​that​ ​no​ ​one​ ​wanted​ ​anything​ ​more​ ​than​ ​a​ ​potato​ ​slicer.​ ​​ ​But​ ​that​ ​was​ ​twelve  years​ ​ago​ ​and​ ​she's​ ​totally​ ​over​ ​it​ ​now.​ ​​ ​And​ ​she​ ​won't​ ​say​ ​who​ ​is​ ​getting​ ​the​ ​potato  slicer.​ ​​ ​A​ ​potato​ ​slicer​ ​or​ ​a​ ​million​ ​dollars​ ​we​ ​can​ ​get​ ​our​ ​heads​ ​around,​ ​but​ ​an  inheritance​ ​of​ ​words​ ​makes​ ​little​ ​sense​ ​to​ ​us.​ ​​ ​We'd​ ​say,​ ​“Well,​ ​that​ ​didn’t​ ​count!!”  

Seems​ ​like​ ​Isaac​ ​ought​ ​just​ ​to​ ​take​ ​it​ ​back​ ​–​ ​have​ ​a​ ​do-over​ ​with​ ​Esau,​ ​once​ ​he'd​ ​realized  he'd​ ​been​ ​tricked.​ ​​ ​But​ ​word​ ​was​ ​more​ ​than​ ​gold​ ​to​ ​them.​ ​​ ​Word​ ​spoke​ ​reality​ ​into​ ​being.  Word​ ​and​ ​gesture​ ​were​ ​the​ ​very​ ​activity​ ​of​ ​creation​ ​–​ ​the​ ​blessing​ ​could​ ​no​ ​more​ ​be  taken​ ​back​ ​than​ ​an​ ​arrow,​ ​shot,​ ​can​ ​be​ ​unshot. 

It​ ​makes​ ​my​ ​stomach​ ​hurt​ ​to​ ​read​ ​how​ ​Rebekah​ ​and​ ​Jacob​ ​had​ ​this​ ​plan​ ​in​ ​place.​ ​​ ​How​ ​as  soon​ ​as​ ​they​ ​heard​ ​Isaac​ ​say​ ​to​ ​Esau,​ ​"It's​ ​time,"​ ​they​ ​were​ ​ready.​ ​​ ​I​ ​trash-talked  husbands​ ​last​ ​week.​ ​​ ​But​ ​Rebekah​ ​–​ ​Rebekah​ ​is​ ​as​ ​bad​ ​as​ ​Abraham.​ ​​ ​She​ ​all​ ​but​ ​wishes  one​ ​son​ ​dead​ ​–​ ​and​ ​treats​ ​her​ ​husband​ ​disgracefully. 

And​ ​I​ ​know​ ​you’ve​ ​read​ ​your​ ​homework,​ ​so​ ​I​ ​know​ ​that​ ​you​ ​know​ ​that​ ​this​ ​jealousy​ ​and  favoritism​ ​between​ ​the​ ​boys​ ​is​ ​old​ ​as​ ​they​ ​are.​ ​​ ​Jacob​ ​is​ ​mean.​ ​​ ​Esau​ ​strikes​ ​me​ ​as​ ​more  trusting​ ​than​ ​bright.​ ​​ ​Jacob​ ​has​ ​schemed​ ​against​ ​Esau​ ​since​ ​birth.​ ​​ ​He's​ ​coveted​ ​the  blessing​ ​since​ ​they​ ​were​ ​old​ ​enough​ ​to​ ​build​ ​a​ ​fire.​ ​​ ​The​ ​blessing​ ​is​ ​the​ ​Promise​ ​itself  given​ ​to​ ​Abraham​ ​from​ ​God​ ​–​ ​the​ ​promise​ ​of​ ​descendants​ ​numerous​ ​as​ ​the​ ​stars,​ ​and  land​ ​to​ ​belong​ ​to​ ​them. 

The​ ​blessing​ ​–​ ​the​ ​promise​ ​–​ ​was​ ​everything.​ ​​ ​But​ ​what​ ​Rebekah​ ​and​ ​Jacob​ ​heard​ ​(I​ ​guess  –​ ​I​ ​don’t​ ​really​ ​know​ ​what​ ​they​ ​thought​ ​the​ ​blessing​ ​consisted​ ​of.​ ​​ ​Maybe​ ​they​ ​wanted​ ​it  mostly​ ​because​ ​they​ ​couldn’t​ ​have​ ​it​ ​–​ ​but​ ​I’m​ ​imagining​ ​they​ ​imagined​ ​it​ ​as​ ​wealth,  control​ ​of​ ​so​ ​much​ ​wealth):​ ​​ ​The​ ​Promise​ ​was​ ​enormous​ ​–​ ​more​ ​than​ ​a​ ​person​ ​could  fathom.​ ​​ ​And​ ​yet,​ ​it​ ​passed​ ​from​ ​one​ ​generation​ ​to​ ​another​ ​in​ ​such​ ​frail​ ​ways.  Remember​ ​how​ ​Sarah​ ​and​ ​Abraham​ ​panicked​ ​and​ ​ended​ ​up​ ​with​ ​Ishmael​ ​too?​ ​​ ​In​ ​this  case​ ​there​ ​are​ ​the​ ​words​ ​and​ ​touch​ ​of​ ​a​ ​bedridden,​ ​blind​ ​man​ ​who​ ​believes​ ​himself​ ​at  death's​ ​door.​ ​​ ​He​ ​is​ ​not,​ ​in​ ​fact.​ ​​ ​He​ ​will​ ​live​ ​two​ ​or​ ​three​ ​more​ ​decades.  

He​ ​calls​ ​his​ ​good-hearted,​ ​but​ ​not​ ​the-sharpest-tool-in-the-box,​ ​son​ ​to​ ​his​ ​side​ ​and​ ​says,  "It’s​ ​time.​ ​​ ​Go​ ​kill​ ​and​ ​cook​ ​our​ ​last​ ​meal,​ ​so​ ​we​ ​can​ ​eat,​ ​and​ ​I​ ​can​ ​speak​ ​to​ ​you​ ​the  blessing.”​ ​​ ​Meanwhile​ ​the​ ​other​ ​two​ ​spring​ ​into​ ​action.​ ​​ ​Jacob​ ​gets​ ​on​ ​his​ ​costume​ ​and  practices​ ​his​ ​lines.​ ​​ ​Rebekah​ ​thaws​ ​the​ ​roast​ ​and​ ​bread​ ​she’s​ ​had​ ​ready​ ​for​ ​months.​ ​​ ​Isaac  knows​ ​something​ ​isn't​ ​right,​ ​but​ ​either​ ​he​ ​doesn't​ ​have​ ​the​ ​strength​ ​to​ ​discern​ ​for​ ​sure​ ​or  he​ ​doesn't​ ​have​ ​the​ ​heart​ ​to​ ​admit​ ​to​ ​himself​ ​what​ ​is​ ​happening​ ​–​ ​to​ ​admit​ ​to​ ​himself  what​ ​his​ ​own​ ​wife​ ​and​ ​child​ ​are​ ​doing.​ ​​ ​He'll​ ​risk​ ​the​ ​blessing​ ​before​ ​he'll​ ​admit​ ​that. 

It​ ​is​ ​sickening​ ​to​ ​listen​ ​to​ ​Jacob​ ​lie​ ​to​ ​his​ ​father.​ ​​ ​And​ ​worse​ ​to​ ​watch​ ​Esau​ ​weep.​ ​​ ​It’s  called​ ​pathos​ ​–​ ​this​ ​aching,​ ​sickening​ ​sorrow​ ​between​ ​the​ ​father​ ​and​ ​the​ ​son.​ ​​ ​Without  pathos​ ​we'd​ ​have​ ​a​ ​very​ ​skinny​ ​Bible​ ​–​ ​and​ ​hardly​ ​any​ ​literature​ ​at​ ​all.​ ​​ ​The​ ​parent​ ​failed  to​ ​keep​ ​one​ ​brother​ ​from​ ​doing​ ​his​ ​best​ ​to​ ​kill​ ​the​ ​other,​ ​and​ ​the​ ​injured​ ​brother​ ​is  devastated.​ ​​ ​The​ ​injury​ ​can't​ ​be​ ​undone​ ​or​ ​taken​ ​back.​ ​​ ​The​ ​daddy​ ​comforts​ ​the​ ​injured  one​ ​as​ ​best​ ​he​ ​can,​ ​already​ ​planning​ ​how​ ​to​ ​protect​ ​the​ ​lying​ ​child​ ​from​ ​the​ ​weeping​ ​one,  knowing​ ​that​ ​grief​ ​is​ ​going​ ​to​ ​turn​ ​to​ ​murderous​ ​rage​ ​really​ ​soon.  

Jacob​ ​inherits​ ​everything​ ​and​ ​becomes​ ​a​ ​fugitive.​ ​​ ​Through​ ​him​ ​the​ ​promise​ ​will  continue.​ ​​ ​Fleeing​ ​back​ ​to​ ​his​ ​mama's​ ​people,​ ​although​ ​he's​ ​never​ ​met​ ​them,​ ​where​ ​Esau  hopefully​ ​cannot​ ​follow.​ ​​ ​Genesis​ ​28:10-17​ ​is​ ​the​ ​centerpiece​ ​text​ ​of​ ​the​ ​Jacob​ ​narrative,  the​ ​stairway​ ​to​ ​heaven​ ​dream​ ​in​ ​which​ ​he​ ​receives​ ​the​ ​same​ ​promise​ ​his​ ​grandfather  received​ ​–​ ​directly​ ​from​ ​God. 

I​ ​love​ ​how​ ​Frederick​ ​Buechner​ ​wrote​ ​it​ ​in​ ​his​ ​Who's​ ​Who​ ​of​ ​Bible​ ​characters.​ ​​ ​The  hardest​ ​part​ ​of​ ​the​ ​Jacob​ ​story​ ​is​ ​the​ ​same​ ​hardest​ ​part​ ​of​ ​the​ ​David​ ​story​ ​and​ ​the​ ​Peter  story​ ​–​ ​and​ ​the​ ​Paul​ ​story:​ ​​ ​Jacob’s​ ​a​ ​jerk;​ ​he's​ ​a​ ​crook;​ ​he​ ​really​ ​is​ ​truly​ ​awful​ ​–​ ​and​ ​God  is​ ​on​ ​his​ ​side.​ ​​ ​Jacob​ ​wishes​ ​his​ ​brother​ ​dead,​ ​he​ ​steals​ ​from​ ​his​ ​dying​ ​father,​ ​he​ ​hightails  it​ ​out​ ​of​ ​town​ ​–​ ​and​ ​God​ ​blesses​ ​him​ ​double.  

It​ ​makes​ ​me​ ​crazy.​ ​​ ​I​ ​want​ ​the​ ​Bible​ ​to​ ​make​ ​sense​ ​–​ ​not​ ​just​ ​any​ ​sense,​ ​but​ ​the​ ​sense​ ​I  like,​ ​where​ ​the​ ​good​ ​things​ ​happen​ ​to​ ​good​ ​people​ ​who​ ​make​ ​good​ ​choices​ ​to​ ​be​ ​kind​ ​and  generous​ ​to​ ​everyone​ ​all​ ​the​ ​time​ ​–​ ​people​ ​who,​ ​when​ ​they​ ​get​ ​bored​ ​or​ ​scared,​ ​don’t  turn​ ​selfish​ ​and​ ​jealous​ ​and​ ​conniving​ ​and​ ​mean.​ ​​ ​But​ ​of​ ​course​ ​that​ ​can't​ ​be​ ​how​ ​things  work,​ ​since​ ​that​ ​isn't​ ​how​ ​people​ ​are.​ ​​ ​What​ ​could​ ​God​ ​get​ ​done​ ​only​ ​using​ ​people​ ​who  only​ ​ever​ ​make​ ​good​ ​choices?​ ​​ ​Practically​ ​nothing,​ ​I​ ​suspect. 

Years​ ​ago​ ​a​ ​certain​ ​boy​ ​was​ ​really,​ ​really​ ​terrible​ ​to​ ​one​ ​of​ ​my​ ​girls.​ ​​ ​He​ ​was​ ​a​ ​year​ ​or  two​ ​ahead​ ​of​ ​her​ ​in​ ​high​ ​school.​ ​​ ​I​ ​fantasized​ ​about​ ​running​ ​over​ ​him​ ​with​ ​my​ ​car.​ ​​ ​My  daughter​ ​said,​ ​"Let​ ​it​ ​go,​ ​Mom.​ ​​ ​The​ ​universe​ ​will​ ​take​ ​care​ ​of​ ​him.”​ ​​ ​Here's​ ​the​ ​thing:  when​ ​it's​ ​not​ ​my​ ​life​ ​and​ ​not​ ​my​ ​kid,​ ​especially​ ​when​ ​it's​ ​a​ ​story​ ​on​ ​a​ ​page,​ ​I​ ​can​ ​see​ ​that  faith​ ​in​ ​God​ ​can​ ​only​ ​happen​ ​in​ ​the​ ​ordinary​ ​flow​ ​of​ ​ordinary​ ​human​ ​existence,​ ​in​ ​the  course​ ​of​ ​how​ ​people​ ​truly​ ​live​ ​and​ ​behave​ ​–​ ​not​ ​how​ ​they​ ​ought​ ​to​ ​behave​ ​or​ ​should  behave,​ ​but​ ​how​ ​we​ ​actually​ ​DO​ ​behave​ ​in​ ​the​ ​messiness​ ​of​ ​being​ ​alive​ ​and​ ​being​ ​related  to​ ​other​ ​human​ ​beings. 

It​ ​was​ ​God's​ ​idea​ ​to​ ​arrange​ ​us​ ​into​ ​families​ ​in​ ​the​ ​first​ ​place.​ ​​ ​When​ ​it​ ​works,​ ​it's  awesome.​ ​​ ​But​ ​even​ ​when​ ​it​ ​works​ ​it’s​ ​not​ ​awesome​ ​every​ ​day​ ​–​ ​amen?​ ​​ ​Some​ ​days​ ​stink  –​ ​amen?​ ​​ ​And​ ​for​ ​clarification:​ ​​ ​by​ family​​ I’m​ ​talking​ ​about​ ​people​ ​who​ ​are​ ​blood​ ​kin​ ​to  each​ ​other.​ ​​ ​I’m​ ​also​ ​talking​ ​about​ ​people​ ​who​ ​just​ ​sort​ ​of​ ​fall​ ​in​ ​together​ ​and​ ​end​ ​up  calling​ ​each​ ​other​ ​​family.​ ​​ ​I​ ​am​ ​also​ ​talking​ ​about​ ​church:​ ​​ ​folks​ ​with​ ​nothing​ ​in​ ​common  but​ ​faith.​ ​​ ​It​ ​is​ ​all​ ​family. 

But​ ​every​ ​single​ ​family​ ​that​ ​ever​ ​was​ ​or​ ​is​ ​or​ ​will​ ​be​ ​has​ ​one​ ​thing​ ​in​ ​common.​ ​​ ​For  better​ ​or​ ​worse,​ ​we​ ​are​ ​what​ ​God​ ​has​ ​to​ ​work​ ​with.​ ​​ ​How​ ​families​ ​ought​ ​to​ ​act​ ​and should​ ​act​ ​may​ ​seem​ ​obvious.​ ​​ ​It​ ​just​ ​isn't​ ​very​ ​relevant​ ​when​ ​it​ ​comes​ ​to​ ​God’s​ ​will  getting​ ​worked​ ​out​ ​in​ ​the​ ​world. 

Jacob​ ​was​ ​a​ ​trickster​ ​and​ ​a​ ​crook.​ ​​ ​But​ ​he​ ​had​ ​nothing​ ​on​ ​his​ ​Uncle​ ​Laban.​ ​​ ​(You’ll​ ​read  about​ ​him​ ​in​ ​this​ ​week’s​ ​homework.)​ ​​ ​Uncle​ ​Laban​ ​swindled​ ​Jacob​ ​out​ ​of​ ​14​ ​years​ ​of  labor​ ​before​ ​Jacob​ ​knew​ ​what​ ​hit​ ​him.​ ​​ ​Jacob​ ​eventually​ ​caught​ ​on​ ​–​ ​and​ ​caught​ ​up​ ​in​ ​the  swindling​ ​business.​ ​​ ​He​ ​swindled​ ​Laban​ ​right​ ​back​ ​and​ ​then​ ​had​ ​to​ ​run​ ​away​ ​again,​ ​this  time​ ​with​ ​his​ ​four​ ​baby​ ​mamas:​ ​​ ​two​ ​wives,​ ​two​ ​concubines,​ ​as​ ​many​ ​as​ ​two​ ​dozen​ ​kids,  servants,​ ​flocks​ ​and​ ​herds.​ ​​ ​It​ ​was​ ​a​ ​slow​ ​train. 

And​ ​guess​ ​where​ ​they​ ​were​ ​headed?​ ​​ ​Back​ ​to​ ​Esau​ ​–​ ​about​ ​whom​ ​he​ ​had​ ​no​ ​idea:​ ​​ ​will​ ​he  take​ ​us​ ​in​ ​or​ ​kill​ ​all​ ​of​ ​us​ ​on​ ​sight?​ ​​ ​He​ ​has​ ​nowhere​ ​else​ ​to​ ​go.​ ​​ ​Plus,​ ​the​ ​Promise​ ​sends  him​ ​there.​ ​​ ​I​ ​like​ ​thinking​ ​God​ ​could​ ​be​ ​generous​ ​with​ ​young​ ​Jacob,​ ​because​ ​God​ ​knew  what​ ​the​ ​universe​ ​had​ ​planned​ ​for​ ​him​ ​over​ ​the​ ​next​ ​thirty​ ​years.​ ​​ ​If​ ​God​ ​could​ ​move​ ​the  promise​ ​from​ ​one​ ​generation​ ​to​ ​the​ ​next​ ​only​ ​when​ ​folks​ ​were​ ​acting​ ​right,​ ​it​ ​would  have​ ​never​ ​gotten​ ​past​ ​Abraham​ ​and​ ​Sarah. 

And​ ​I’m​ ​convinced​ ​it’s​ ​not​ ​by​ ​default​ ​either,​ ​as​ ​if​ ​God​ ​is​ ​settling​ ​with​ ​less​ ​than​ ​what​ ​God  wishes​ ​for​ ​us.​ ​​ ​But​ ​rather,​ ​God​ ​knows​ ​it​ ​is​ ​very​ ​difficult​ ​to​ ​be​ ​a​ ​human​ ​being​ ​related​ ​to  other​ ​human​ ​beings.​ ​​ ​Most​ ​of​ ​us​ ​are​ ​calculating​ ​and​ ​covetous​ ​on​ ​our​ ​best​ ​days.​ ​​ ​The​ ​only  faith​ ​we​ ​have​ ​is​ ​the​ ​faith​ ​God​ ​gives​ ​us.​ ​​ ​And​ ​this​ ​is​ ​what​ ​God​ ​has​ ​to​ ​work​ ​with​ ​–​ ​by​ ​God's  own​ ​design,​ ​mind​ ​you,​ ​but​ ​still,​ ​this​ ​is​ ​it.  

It's​ ​true​ ​that​ ​Jacob​ ​got​ ​the​ ​blessing,​ ​but​ ​I'm​ ​not​ ​sure​ ​Esau​ ​didn't​ ​have​ ​the​ ​happier​ ​life.​ ​​ ​He  certainly​ ​had​ ​less​ ​drama.​ ​​ ​Everything​ ​terrible​ ​Jacob​ ​did​ ​to​ ​his​ ​own​ ​daddy,​ ​was​ ​paid​ ​back  to​ ​him​ ​tenfold​ ​by​ ​his​ ​own​ ​sons.​ ​​ ​They​ ​were​ ​horrible​ ​brothers.​ ​​ ​And​ ​also​ ​next​ ​to​ ​inherit  the​ ​blessing,​ ​then​ ​lose​ ​it​ ​for​ ​the​ ​next​ ​400​ ​years,​ ​obliterated​ ​from​ ​their​ ​memories.​ ​​ ​The  very​ ​ground​ ​you​ ​lie​ ​upon​ ​shall​ ​be​ ​yours​ ​and​ ​your​ ​descendants’,​ ​is​ ​what​ ​God​ ​said​ ​in  Jacob's​ ​dream.​ ​​ ​Jacob​ ​could​ ​reach​ ​out​ ​his​ ​hand​ ​and​ ​touch​ ​it.​ ​​ ​And​ ​yet,​ ​it​ ​wasn’t​ ​to​ ​happen  in​ ​his​ ​lifetime.  

Turns​ ​out​ ​the​ ​fugitive​ ​isn't​ ​Jacob​ ​after​ ​all.​ ​​ ​The​ ​fugitive​ ​is​ ​the​ ​blessing​ ​itself​ ​–​ ​forever  slipping​ ​between​ ​the​ ​petty​ ​coveting​ ​and​ ​the​ ​calculations​ ​of​ ​brothers,​ ​generations​ ​of  brothers​ ​–​ ​and​ ​a​ ​sister​ ​here​ ​and​ ​there​ ​–​ ​who​ ​simply​ ​cannot​ ​trust​ ​the​ ​Father's​ ​love​ ​for  them.​ ​​ ​A​ ​blessing​ ​the​ ​fulfillment​ ​of​ ​which​ ​is​ ​always​ ​moving​ ​further​ ​and​ ​further​ ​away​ ​in  time​ ​and​ ​space​ ​than​ ​Jacob​ ​ever​ ​could​ ​have​ ​dreamed,​ ​the​ ​night​ ​he​ ​dreamed​ ​it​ ​on​ ​his​ ​stone  pillow.​ ​​ ​This​ ​promise​ ​he​ ​covets​ ​and​ ​cannot​ ​take​ ​care​ ​of:​ ​​ ​400​ ​years​ ​it’s​ ​buried​ ​in​ ​Egypt,  utterly​ ​forgotten​ ​by​ ​Jacob's​ ​great-grandchildren's​ ​children,​ ​until​ ​a​ ​baby​ ​in​ ​a​ ​basket  comes​ ​floating​ ​down​ ​a​ ​river​ ​to​ ​be​ ​discovered​ ​by​ ​a​ ​princess​ ​who​ ​carries​ ​it​ ​home​ ​and​ ​says,  "Can​ ​we​ ​keep​ ​him,​ ​Daddy?”​ ​​ ​Having​ ​no​ ​idea​ ​there​ ​was​ ​a​ ​fugitive​ ​promise​ ​in​ ​the​ ​basket  too,​ ​that​ ​very,​ ​very​ ​naïve​ ​daddy​ ​–​ ​he​ ​told​ ​her​ ​​yes. 

​Would​ ​you​ ​pray​ ​with​ ​me? 

I​ ​cannot​ ​help​ ​but​ ​think​ ​that​ ​Abraham's​ ​heart​ ​was​ ​broken​ ​to​ ​have​ ​lived​ ​through​ ​such​ ​a  day.​ ​​ ​Covered​ ​in​ ​ram's​ ​blood​ ​and​ ​speechless​ ​to​ ​explain​ ​his​ ​tears.​ ​​ ​Sarah,​ ​on​ ​the​ ​other  hand​ ​–​ ​I​ ​bet​ ​she​ ​had​ ​plenty​ ​to​ ​say​ ​when​ ​they​ ​all​ ​got​ ​home.​ ​​ ​I​ ​can​ ​only​ ​read​ ​this​ ​story​ ​as​ ​a  mama,​ ​not​ ​a​ ​preacher.​ ​​ ​Or,​ ​at​ ​least,​ ​everything​ ​my​ ​preacher​ ​mouth​ ​says​ ​is​ ​filtered  through​ ​my​ ​mama​ ​heart​ ​and​ ​brain.​ ​​ ​

I'm​ ​here​ ​to​ ​tell​ ​ya,​ ​I​ ​wouldn't​ ​do​ ​it:​ ​​ ​sacrifice​ ​my  child,​ ​take​ ​one​ ​step​ ​at​ ​the​ ​suggestion​ ​of​ ​sacrificing​ ​my​ ​own​ ​child​ ​to​ ​prove​ ​my​ ​devotion​ ​to  God.​ ​​ ​I'd​ ​sooner​ ​cut​ ​my​ ​own​ ​throat.​ ​​ ​And​ ​Lord​ ​help​ ​him​ ​if​ ​my​ ​husband​ ​did​ ​what  Abraham​ ​did​ ​and​ ​I​ ​found​ ​out​ ​about​ ​it.​ ​​ ​Even​ ​if​ ​he​ ​did​ ​bring​ ​the​ ​boy​ ​home,​ ​I'd​ ​never  speak​ ​to​ ​him​ ​again.​ ​​ ​He'd​ ​be​ ​dead​ ​to​ ​me​ ​whether​ ​or​ ​not​ ​he​ ​breathed.  

Sarah​ ​herself​ ​dies​ ​in​ ​the​ ​next​ ​chapter.​ ​​ ​Granted​ ​she​ ​was​ ​127​ ​years​ ​old,​ ​but​ ​still.​ ​​ ​After​ ​all  the​ ​stuff​ ​Abraham​ ​pulled,​ ​like​ ​the​ ​time​ ​he​ ​passed​ ​her​ ​off​ ​as​ ​his​ ​sister​ ​–​ ​essentially​ ​gave  her​ ​to​ ​a​ ​foreign​ ​king​ ​for​ ​a​ ​couple​ ​of​ ​nights​ ​to​ ​save​ ​his​ ​own​ ​skin!​ ​​ ​This​ ​stunt​ ​with​ ​Isaac,​ ​I  believe,​ ​is​ ​what​ ​finally​ ​did​ ​her​ ​in.  

I'm​ ​gonna​ ​go​ ​ahead​ ​and​ ​tell​ ​you​ ​the​ ​end​ ​of​ ​the​ ​sermon​ ​now,​ ​the​ ​only​ ​sense​ ​I​ ​can​ ​make​ ​of  so​ ​obscene,​ ​so​ ​outrageous​ ​a​ ​story:​ ​​ ​​ ​we​ ​simply​ ​are​ ​not​ ​capable​ ​of​ ​the​ ​faith​ ​to​ ​which​ ​God  calls​ ​us,​ ​this​ ​call​ ​to​ ​give​ ​up​ ​everything,​ ​to​ ​leave​ ​home​ ​and​ ​family​ ​as​ ​if​ ​they​ ​were​ ​nothing  more​ ​to​ ​us​ ​than​ ​property,​ ​to​ ​trust​ ​God​ ​alone​ ​and​ ​altogether,​ ​no​ ​matter​ ​how​ ​terrible​ ​the  circumstance.​ ​​ ​WE​ ​cannot​ ​do​ ​it.​ ​​ ​Such​ ​faith​ ​can​ ​only​ ​come​ ​FROM​ ​God.  

The​ ​wood,​ ​the​ ​binding,​ ​and​ ​the​ ​willing​ ​son​ ​of​ ​Genesis​ ​22​ ​is​ ​the​ ​worst​ ​story​ ​imaginable​ ​–  the​ ​stuff​ ​of​ ​nightmares.​ ​​ ​And​ ​yet,​ ​here​ ​it​ ​is​ ​in​ ​the​ ​Bible,​ ​front​ ​and​ ​center,​ ​just​ ​daring​ ​us​ ​to  keep​ ​believing​ ​in​ ​the​ ​Creative​ ​God​ ​who​ ​brings​ ​life​ ​from​ ​death.  

Why​ ​would​ ​such​ ​a​ ​God​ ​ask​ ​such​ ​a​ ​thing?​ ​​ ​The​ ​rabbis​ ​and​ ​scholars​ ​are​ ​rife​ ​with​ ​ideas.  Many​ ​of​ ​them​ ​say​ ​it's​ ​a​ ​test​ ​of​ ​obedience,​ ​of​ ​ultimate​ ​faith​ ​in​ ​God.​ ​​ ​Taken​ ​at​ ​face​ ​value,  the​ ​Old​ ​Testament​ ​would​ ​have​ ​us​ ​imagine​ ​Abraham​ ​never​ ​wavered.​ ​​ ​"Okay,​ ​God,​ ​no  problem​ ​God.”​ ​​ ​He​ ​packed,​ ​he​ ​walked,​ ​he​ ​put​ ​the​ ​wood​ ​on​ ​his​ ​son's​ ​back​ ​and​ ​picked​ ​up  the​ ​fire​ ​and​ ​the​ ​knife.​ ​​ ​He​ ​bound​ ​his​ ​son​ ​and​ ​raised​ ​the​ ​knife.​ ​​ ​

How​ ​old​ ​is​ ​this​ ​child,​ ​by  the​ ​way?​ ​​ ​Little,​ ​like​ ​Aden​ ​and​ ​Reed?​ ​​ ​Almost​ ​grown​ ​like​ ​Andy?​ ​​ ​Full-grown​ ​like​ ​Rob?  Abraham​ ​calls​ ​him​ ​a​ ​boy​ ​–​ ​which​ ​means​ ​nothing.​ ​​ ​Carl’s​ ​daddy​ ​called​ ​him​ ​“sweetheart”  his​ ​whole​ ​life.​ ​​ ​We​ ​don't​ ​know.​ ​​ ​There's​ ​no​ ​suggestion​ ​the​ ​boy​ ​struggled.​ ​​ ​He​ ​appears​ ​to  have​ ​been​ ​light​ ​enough​ ​for​ ​a​ ​100-year-old​ ​man​ ​to​ ​subdue,​ ​so​ ​probably​ ​not​ ​a​ ​toddler.​ ​​ ​Or,  more​ ​likely,​ ​he​ ​just​ ​trusted​ ​his​ ​daddy​ ​that​ ​much.  

So​ ​Abraham​ ​raised​ ​his​ ​knife​ ​to​ ​the​ ​throat​ ​of​ ​his​ ​boy​ ​and​ ​the​ ​angel​ ​believed​ ​he​ ​would​ ​do  it.​ ​​ ​The​ ​rabbis​ ​arguing​ ​the​ ​passage​ ​since​ ​then​ ​don't​ ​agree.​ ​​ ​Half​ ​of​ ​them​ ​are​ ​on​ ​the​ ​angels'  side.​ ​​ ​Others​ ​believe​ ​Abraham​ ​knew​ ​all​ ​along​ ​God​ ​would​ ​not​ ​make​ ​him​ ​go​ ​through​ ​with  it.​ ​​ ​Either​ ​way,​ ​it​ ​reads​ ​to​ ​me​ ​like​ ​a​ ​sadistic​ ​game​ ​God​ ​is​ ​playing​ ​with​ ​the​ ​life​ ​of​ ​a​ ​child.  No​ ​theological​ ​point​ ​rises​ ​to​ ​such​ ​worth. 

But​ ​here’s​ ​the​ ​thing:​ ​​ ​however​ ​outrageous​ ​the​ ​story,​ ​this​ ​is​ ​not​ ​an​ ​entirely​ ​abstract  situation.​ ​​ ​Such​ ​predicaments​ ​happen​ ​all​ ​the​ ​time.​ ​​ ​At​ ​Riley​ ​Hospital​ ​this​ ​very​ ​minute there​ ​are​ ​parents​ ​in​ ​the​ ​crucible​ ​of​ ​horrible,​ ​impossible​ ​decisions​ ​about​ ​their​ ​kids'​ ​lives,  who​ ​want​ ​to​ ​know​ ​WHY​ ​God​ ​has​ ​put​ ​them​ ​in​ ​this​ ​nightmare.​ ​​ ​In​ ​Yemen,​ ​South​ ​Sudan,  Syria,​ ​people​ ​are​ ​watching​ ​their​ ​own​ ​children​ ​starve.​ ​​ ​Do​ ​they​ ​feed​ ​each​ ​of​ ​them​ ​a​ ​little  so​ ​that​ ​they​ ​starve​ ​more​ ​slowly,​ ​or​ ​stop​ ​feeding​ ​one​ ​so​ ​the​ ​others​ ​might​ ​live​ ​and​ ​be​ ​well? 

If​ ​the​ ​whole​ ​world​ ​is​ ​in​ ​God's​ ​hands,​ ​are​ ​those​ ​parents​ ​and​ ​kids​ ​in​ ​God's​ ​hands​ ​too?​ ​​ ​Is  God​ ​accountable​ ​for​ ​their​ ​crisis?​ ​​ ​I​ ​do​ ​not​ ​know.​ ​​ ​The​ ​best​ ​I​ ​can​ ​unravel​ ​it​ ​is​ ​this​ ​–​ ​and  believe​ ​you​ ​me,​ ​I​ ​know​ ​how​ ​far​ ​short​ ​of​ ​a​ ​satisfying​ ​answer​ ​this​ ​is: 

ONE:​ ​​ ​God​ ​made​ ​humans​ ​for​ ​companionship​ ​and​ ​co-creation,​ ​to​ ​be​ ​God's​ ​friends​ ​and  partners​ ​in​ ​caring​ ​for​ ​the​ ​rest​ ​of​ ​the​ ​world.​ ​​ ​But​ ​robots​ ​can't​ ​be​ ​friends,​ ​so​ ​we​ ​were​ ​made  free;​ ​God​ ​made​ ​us​ ​free​ ​to​ ​choose​ ​friendship​ ​and​ ​partnership​ ​with​ ​God,​ ​or​ ​not.​ ​​ ​When​ ​and  where​ ​we​ ​choose​ ​yes,​ ​creation​ ​thrives.​ ​​ ​When​ ​and​ ​where​ ​we​ ​don't,​ ​creation​ ​suffers​ ​–​ ​us  included. 

TWO:​ ​​ ​The​ ​name​ ​"Abraham”​ ​​ ​means​ ​"Father​ ​of​ ​Many,”​ ​which​ ​God​ ​gave​ ​Abram​ ​when​ ​God  first​ ​made​ ​him​ ​this​ ​promise​ ​to​ ​be​ ​the​ ​Father​ ​of​ ​a​ ​nation,​ ​with​ ​progeny​ ​as​ ​numerous​ ​as  the​ ​stars.​ ​​ ​This​ ​is​ ​in​ ​Genesis,​ ​chapter​ ​12.​ ​​ ​"Father​ ​of​ ​Many”​ ​sounded​ ​kind​ ​of​ ​like​ ​a​ ​joke,  since​ ​Abraham​ ​and​ ​his​ ​wife​ ​Sarah​ ​were​ ​older​ ​than​ ​old,​ ​and​ ​so​ ​far​ ​they​ ​had​ ​exactly​ ​zero  children. 

But​ ​Abraham​ ​and​ ​Sarah​ ​went​ ​along​ ​with​ ​it.​ ​​ ​They​ ​picked​ ​up​ ​and​ ​moved​ ​from​ ​where​ ​they  were​ ​and​ ​traveled​ ​forever​ ​and​ ​had​ ​lots​ ​of​ ​adventures,​ ​but​ ​no​ ​babies.​ ​​ ​In​ ​chapter​ ​17,​ ​God  promises​ ​Abraham​ ​that​ ​he​ ​is​ ​going​ ​to​ ​have​ ​soooo​ ​many​ ​kids​ ​and​ ​grandkids,​ ​and​ ​they​ ​will  all​ ​come​ ​through​ ​the​ ​son​ ​he's​ ​going​ ​to​ ​have​ ​by​ ​Sarah,​ ​who​ ​is​ ​approaching​ ​her​ ​90th  birthday​ ​pretty​ ​fast.​ ​​ ​Understandably​ ​she​ ​gets​ ​impatient,​ ​and​ ​in​ ​a​ ​moment​ ​of​ ​poor  judgment​ ​she​ ​offered​ ​Abraham​ ​her​ ​maid​ ​Hagar​ ​for​ ​the​ ​night.​ ​​ ​Abraham​ ​resisted​ ​of  course,​ ​knowing​ ​there​ ​was​ ​no​ ​way​ ​this​ ​could​ ​possibly​ ​end​ ​well​ ​–​ ​but​ ​he​ ​only​ ​argued​ ​for  all​ ​of​ ​about​ ​ten​ ​seconds,​ ​and​ ​Hagar​ ​got​ ​pregnant.  

By​ ​the​ ​time​ ​Hagar's​ ​baby​ ​was​ ​about​ ​to​ ​be​ ​born,​ ​Sarah​ ​realized​ ​the​ ​mess​ ​this​ ​was​ ​and  made​ ​Abraham​ ​send​ ​her​ ​away,​ ​and​ ​Hagar​ ​ends​ ​ups​ ​stranded​ ​in​ ​the​ ​desert​ ​with​ ​a  screaming​ ​newborn.​ ​​ ​So​ ​that’s​ ​when​ ​God​ ​tells​ ​Abraham,​ ​“Take​ ​your​ ​son,​ ​your​ ​only​ ​son  Isaac,​ ​whom​ ​you​ ​love,​ ​and​ ​go​ ​to​ ​the​ ​land​ ​of​ ​Moriah,​ ​and​ ​offer​ ​him​ ​there​ ​as​ ​a​ ​burnt  offering.”​ ​​ ​Well,​ ​I​ ​just​ ​think​ ​that​ ​is​ ​pretty​ ​crappy​ ​of​ ​God​ ​to​ ​act​ ​like​ ​Abraham​ ​doesn't​ ​have  two​ ​boys.​ ​​ ​But​ ​that​ ​isn't​ ​the​ ​point​ ​at​ ​the​ ​moment​ ​–​ ​the​ ​point​ ​being,​ ​in​ ​chapter​ ​21​ ​the​ ​Bible  says,​ ​finally​ ​God​ ​did​ ​for​ ​Sarah​ ​as​ ​God​ ​had​ ​promised.​ ​​ ​And​ ​she​ ​has​ ​this​ ​sweet,​ ​sweet​ ​boy,  whom​ ​she​ ​names​ ​Laughter. 

Here's​ ​why​ ​I​ ​call​ ​the​ ​story​ ​a​ ​sadistic​ ​game:​ ​​ ​it's​ ​bad​ ​enough​ ​one​ ​should​ ​threaten​ ​a​ ​child.  But​ ​God????​ ​​ ​And​ ​this​ ​child,​ ​the​ ​child​ ​so​ ​long​ ​promised?​ ​​ ​But​ ​again:​ ​​ ​ordained​ ​and  orchestrated​ ​by​ ​God​ ​or​ ​not,​ ​the​ ​world​ ​operates​ ​just​ ​like​ ​this​ ​all​ ​the​ ​time,​ ​does​ ​it​ ​not?​ ​​ ​If  you​ ​want​ ​to​ ​blame​ ​God,​ ​I​ ​think​ ​that's​ ​okay.​ ​​ ​I​ ​think​ ​God​ ​is​ ​big​ ​enough​ ​to​ ​handle​ ​it.​ ​​ ​And  this:​ ​​ ​while​ ​Genesis​ ​22​ ​may​ ​be​ ​a​ ​central​ ​story​ ​in​ ​the​ ​text,​ ​it​ ​is​ ​not​ ​the​ ​first​ ​nor​ ​the​ ​last  word​ ​regarding​ ​the​ ​heart​ ​and​ ​purposes​ ​of​ ​God. 

AND​ ​THIS​ ​is​ ​#THREE:​ ​​ ​The​ ​wood,​ ​the​ ​binding​ ​and​ ​the​ ​willing​ ​son​ ​do​ ​not​ ​just​ ​appear​ ​here.  The​ ​story​ ​of​ ​the​ ​text​ ​–​ ​of​ ​God​ ​in​ ​the​ ​lives​ ​of​ ​humanity,​ ​of​ ​our​ ​lives​ ​in​ ​Christ,​ ​our​ ​life  together,​ ​and​ ​our​ ​life​ ​in​ ​this​ ​world​ ​–​ ​is​ ​the​ ​great​ ​arc​ ​of​ ​the​ ​story​ ​of​ ​God​ ​and​ ​God's​ ​people,  played​ ​over​ ​and​ ​over​ ​in​ ​the​ ​scriptures,​ ​playing​ ​over​ ​and​ ​over​ ​in​ ​the​ ​church,​ ​playing​ ​over  and​ ​over​ ​in​ ​my​ ​own​ ​walk​ ​with​ ​God.​ ​​ ​Just​ ​like​ ​with​ ​Abraham:​ ​​ ​God​ ​calls,​ ​God​ ​blesses,​ ​God  tests,​ ​God​ ​provides.​ ​​ ​People​ ​are​ ​called​ ​and​ ​blessed​ ​and​ ​tested.​ ​​ ​Inevitably​ ​they​ ​fail.  Inevitably​ ​they​ ​are​ ​loved​ ​and​ ​wanted​ ​and​ ​redeemed​ ​and​ ​made​ ​whole​ ​again. 

Despite​ ​all​ ​our​ ​desires​ ​and​ ​best​ ​intentions,​ ​fear​ ​overwhelms​ ​us​ ​more​ ​often​ ​than​ ​faith.  And​ ​what​ ​do​ ​we​ ​discover?​ ​​ ​We​ ​are​ ​not​ ​lost​ ​after​ ​all,​ ​but​ ​rather,​ ​God​ ​has​ ​come​ ​along​ ​to  take​ ​us​ ​the​ ​rest​ ​of​ ​the​ ​way.​ ​​ ​God​ ​–​ ​who​ ​hoped​ ​we​ ​would​ ​trust​ ​him​ ​more​ ​than​ ​we​ ​did​ ​–​ ​is  full​ ​of​ ​mercy​ ​when​ ​we​ ​just​ ​can't. 

I​ ​would​ ​offer:​ ​​ ​these​ ​characters​ ​in​ ​Genesis​ ​22​ ​are​ ​like​ ​shadow​ ​puppets​ ​playing​ ​off​ ​the  light​ ​of​ ​the​ ​gospel.​ ​​ ​Tell​ ​me​ ​where​ ​you​ ​can​ ​see​ ​it.​ ​​ ​Imagine​ ​that​ ​Jesus​ ​is​ ​imitated​ ​in  multiple​ ​characters:​ ​​ ​Abraham,​ ​Sarah,​ ​Isaac​ ​–​ ​and​ ​even​ ​the​ ​ram:  

➢ This​ ​long-promised,​ ​long-expected​ ​child; 
➢ Abraham's​ ​(almost)​ ​unquestioning​ ​obedience; 
➢ Isaac's​ ​passive​ ​acceptance​ ​of​ ​impending​ ​suffering; 
➢ this​ ​line,​ ​"your​ ​son,​ ​your​ ​only​ ​son,”​ ​​ ​mindful​ ​of​ ​the​ ​baptism​ ​of​ ​Jesus; 
➢ the​ ​servants​ ​(disciples)​ ​who​ ​cannot​ ​go​ ​all​ ​the​ ​way​ ​with​ ​him; 
➢ the​ ​donkey​ ​(beast)​ ​bearing​ ​the​ ​burden​ ​of​ ​the​ ​sacrifice; 
➢ Isaac​ ​carrying​ ​his​ ​own​ ​wood​ ​for​ ​sacrifice; 
➢ the​ ​son​ ​asking​ ​his​ ​father​ ​if​ ​the​ ​sacrifice​ ​is​ ​necessary; 
➢ the​ ​mother,​ ​not​ ​consulted​ ​or​ ​included,​ ​left​ ​to​ ​stand​ ​to​ ​the​ ​side​ ​in​ ​helpless  agony​ ​–​ ​like​ ​Mary.​ ​​ ​But​ ​also​ ​like​ ​God,​ ​watching​ ​the​ ​beloved​ ​creation.  

And​ ​there​ ​was​ ​the​ ​sacrifice​ ​–​ ​not​ ​the​ ​boy,​ ​but​ ​the​ ​ram.​ ​​ ​Abraham​ ​did​ ​not​ ​escape​ ​having  to​ ​draw​ ​blood,​ ​to​ ​kill.​ ​​ ​Death​ ​is​ ​ugly​ ​business​ ​all​ ​around,​ ​but​ ​not​ ​negotiable.​ ​​ ​And​ ​then,  there​ ​is​ ​discipleship.​ ​​ ​It's​ ​pretty​ ​easy,​ ​isn't​ ​it,​ ​to​ ​name​ ​off​ ​that​ ​handful​ ​of​ ​things​ ​which​ ​we  would​ ​NEVER​ ​do,​ ​no​ ​matter​ ​what.  

"I'll​ ​never​ ​sacrifice​ ​my​ ​child,​ ​Lord.​ ​​ ​You​ ​can​ ​forget​ ​that​ ​right​ ​now!”  

"Okay​ ​–​ ​well​ ​–​ ​how​ ​about​ ​going​ ​across​ ​the​ ​street​ ​and​ ​talking​ ​to​ ​your​ ​neighbor​ ​then,  Annette,​ ​how​ ​about​ ​that?”  

"I'm​ ​serious,​ ​Lord,​ ​I​ ​will​ ​NOT​ ​sacri…​ ​–​ ​Wait,​ ​what?​ ​​ ​Lord,​ ​that​ ​guy​ ​is​ ​such​ ​a​ ​jerk.​ ​​ ​For​ ​real,  he's​ ​awful.​ ​​" 

The​ ​obedience​ ​and​ ​the​ ​faith​ ​to​ ​which​ ​God​ ​has​ ​NOT​ ​called​ ​me,​ ​sadly,​ ​does​ ​not​ ​relieve​ ​me  of​ ​the​ ​faith​ ​to​ ​which​ ​God​ ​has.​ ​​ ​This​ ​story​ ​is​ ​outrageous.​ ​​ ​I​ ​mostly​ ​hate​ ​it.​ ​​ ​But​ ​in​ ​the  context​ ​of​ ​my​ ​life​ ​here​ ​and​ ​now,​ ​it​ ​can​ ​show​ ​me​ ​that​ ​whatever​ ​faith​ ​and​ ​courage​ ​any  given​ ​moment​ ​calls​ ​for,​ ​God​ ​is​ ​with​ ​me,​ ​keeping​ ​God's​ ​promises,​ ​whether​ ​or​ ​not​ ​I​ ​can​ ​see it​ ​in​ ​real​ ​time.​ ​​ ​If​ ​all​ ​I​ ​can​ ​do​ ​is​ ​take​ ​the​ ​next​ ​step,​ ​the​ ​next​ ​step​ ​is​ ​the​ ​step​ ​of​ ​faith​ ​that​ ​I  must​ ​take.​ ​​ ​That​ ​one​ ​step​ ​may​ ​be​ ​all​ ​the​ ​faith​ ​God​ ​gives​ ​me​ ​at​ ​a​ ​time. 

​But​ ​the​ ​scriptures​ ​and​ ​the​ ​witness​ ​of​ ​the​ ​church​ ​bear​ ​out​ ​the​ ​truth​ ​that,​ ​at​ ​the​ ​end​ ​of​ ​all  things,​ ​God​ ​takes​ ​up​ ​the​ ​slack​ ​when​ ​and​ ​where​ ​we​ ​finally​ ​fail.​ ​​ ​And​ ​God​ ​brings​ ​life​ ​from  death.​ ​​ ​Does​ ​that​ ​answer​ ​every​ ​problem​ ​in​ ​the​ ​story?​ ​​ ​Nope.​ ​​ ​You​ ​want​ ​to​ ​stay​ ​here​ ​until  we​ ​get​ ​that​ ​all​ ​figured​ ​out?​ ​​ ​I​ ​didn't​ ​think​ ​so.​ ​​ ​The​ ​rabbis​ ​believed​ ​the​ ​biblical​ ​text​ ​is​ ​a  reflection​ ​of​ ​God,​ ​a​ ​way​ ​of​ ​knowing​ ​the​ ​Divine.​ ​​ ​Because​ ​the​ ​Divine​ ​is​ ​infinite,​ ​they  reasoned,​ ​the​ ​text​ ​has​ ​infinite​ ​meaning.​ ​​ ​The​ ​more​ ​you​ ​search​ ​for​ ​it,​ ​the​ ​more​ ​there​ ​will  be​ ​to​ ​search. 

I​ ​cannot​ ​help​ ​but​ ​think​ ​that​ ​Abraham's​ ​heart​ ​was​ ​broken​ ​to​ ​have​ ​lived​ ​through​ ​such​ ​a  day.​ ​​ ​To​ ​come​ ​home,​ ​covered​ ​in​ ​ram's​ ​blood,​ ​weeping​ ​tears​ ​he​ ​could​ ​never​ ​explain​ ​to​ ​his  child’s​ ​mama.​ ​​ ​The​ ​story​ ​of​ ​Chapter​ ​23​ ​is​ ​his​ ​quest​ ​to​ ​find​ ​the​ ​perfect​ ​place​ ​to​ ​bury​ ​her.  The​ ​end​ ​of​ ​the​ ​sermon​ ​is​ ​this:​ ​​ ​We​ ​simply​ ​are​ ​not​ ​capable​ ​of​ ​the​ ​faith​ ​to​ ​which​ ​God​ ​calls  us,​ ​this​ ​call​ ​to​ ​give​ ​up​ ​everything​ ​to​ ​follow​ ​Him,​ ​to​ ​leave​ ​home​ ​and​ ​family​ ​as​ ​if​ ​they​ ​were  nothing​ ​more​ ​to​ ​us​ ​than​ ​property​ ​–​ ​to​ ​trust​ ​God​ ​alone​ ​and​ ​altogether,​ ​no​ ​matter​ ​how  terrible​ ​the​ ​circumstance.  

Thus,​ ​the​ ​wood,​ ​the​ ​binding​ ​and​ ​the​ ​willing​ ​son. 

3 When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers,
 the moon and the stars that you have established;
4 what are human beings that you are mindful of them,
 mortals that you care for them...

Hearing the words from the 8th Psalm, do any of us assume that the psalmist is actually trying to tell us, once and for all, that God has literal hands with ten actual fingers? Of course not; the psalmist is not speaking of divine anatomy but, rather, is singing a love song. The kind in which lovers say the silliest things, trying to tell the world why the One they love is so amazing.
Genesis chapter one should be as easy to preach as any love song ever written.

It is the overture to the story of God and Israel, the part before the first characters come on stage – when the story was still perfect, because it hadn't actually begun yet. Sort of like the baby nursery looks right before you bring home an actual baby. Sweet. Everything matches. There’s a theme. After which it is buried in laundry and smells like sour milk and poo.

But Genesis 1 isn't easy to preach. At least not for me, because a tiny wink of time ago, some preachers in the post-enlightenment West decided it wasn't a love song after all but, rather, a science book. And ever after, other preachers have been standing up here trying their best to sound like scientists, which some of them could pull off – like my philosophy professor in seminary, Dr. Glen Stassen. He held advanced degrees in chemistry along with theology and philosophy. The thing was, Dr. Stassen never treated Genesis like a science book. Always, rather, like poetry. Like the Psalms.

How does a person preach twenty-five years and still shy away from pages of scripture as beautiful as this? There's no good answer and one bad one: fear. Fear of nothing really – of simply not wanting to face a subject about which she doesn't feel competent.

So, study – and tell what truth you do know. It's not rocket science. Or evolutionary biology either, for that matter. Both are real. Neither is on this page of the Bible. On this page of the Bible is poetry, written by a people telling the story of their life together in God.

It's the prologue of a book that could have been titled The Rise & Fall of the People of Israel in Their Quest to Be the People of God at Which They Mostly Failed But There Were Some Really Amazing Moments; A Love Story. Over and over and over again in the telling of this long story, the storytellers run out of prose … and then they do what writers almost always do in those situations. They sing. They turn to poetry.

The prose, the narrative, takes up less than half the Old Testament. The rest is the law, the poetry, and the prophecy that came out of the story being told. Again – Genesis 1 being the overture. How many times, when you watched a movie the second time, did you see so many things that made sense once you knew the ending of the story? Little bits that you didn't catch the first time around. I love this in Lars & the Real Girl. The story takes a year to tell, and the weather matches the story being told. And I especially love it in The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. A beautiful movie, hard to watch but beautiful. Stripes are in nearly every shot of that movie – in bed linens, in the architecture. So subtle. So layered. So much texture.

In the Bible too. In Genesis too. We have to read it all to know that this first page didn’t get written in real time. It matters to know that it came together at the time when Israel thought she'd probably reached the end. When the Babylonians finally wiped out the rest of Judah near the end of the 6th century and the last of the people of Israel were in exile in Babylon.

Others had escaped into Egypt years before. The land called Israel was occupied by Babylon and the ground was devastated. Most had started over as Babylonian citizens, were raising families and working there, with no plans to change. A few dreamed of returning to Israel, but that was a dim hope at best. Exile lasted over 70 years. 70 years! And returning meant starting over from literally nothing, in a land with no infrastructure, no government, no economy, nothing.

So some of the prophets in exile, rightly so, began to think maybe somebody ought to write their story down before everyone who could tell it was dead and gone. So whoever picked up that first sheet of lambskin upon which to write this story, dipped his quill and scratched out "in the beginning when God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was a formless void and darkness covered the face of the deep.” Because – honestly – how does one begin the story of one's life when one's life seems to be a total failure? That was Israel-in-Babylon's writing prompt.

Once upon a time… before there was time at all... there was only God… until the time God chose not to be all that was. And God began to shape out of all that God-ness… something smaller. Starting with wet that was sky… and wet that was earth…. Wet and sky and earth at the time being wordless things, of course, as no speakers had yet come forth to have need of words.

And so it went, the poem. The earth and sky. Light and dark. Plants and animals. Human beings. A Relationship full of love and grief – not that the two are different things. When the composers had their story in its final form, it was a long poem written by people who had started out believing they’d lost everything and ended up realizing they’d miscalculated. What seemed like everything … wasn't.

I keep thinking about people in shelters wondering what's left of their houses? Wondering if they are more sad at what they will lose or more glad at what they will keep. From this sunshiny Indiana moment, all I can do is wonder? I've lost nothing. Nor expect to. Which isn't to say I haven't. Or won't, eventually. We write from what we know, of course. Israel wrote from exile; but what if there had been no exile? Would they even have felt the need to write it? And if so, would page one have started, In the beginning God created Jerusalem ...?

But what's the use of dreaming dreams like, What if there had been no exile? What if this or that or the other thing had never happened? If we'd left earlier. Or later? If we hadn't gone at all? Tim Grimm has a lyric, "life can go from sweet to sad in one heartbeat." Then there are those losses and disasters with the long, slow wind-up. The ones we feel coming forever, but they are soft enough for long enough we can pretend we don't see and feel them coming. Or that what we see is probably something else. Or that there is still time to turn the ship... Until there isn't.

When all the losses were finally counted up, you know what those Israelites in Babylon discovered. The ones still interested in God’s part of it all. They discovered that all was NOT lost after all. They went back over and over the story and confessed that God had never promised life would always be easy. God never promised life wouldn't sometimes be scary and dangerous. God never promised not to take back stuff previously given – land, for instance. Or wealth or worldly influence. God doesn't promise to ignore human disobedience and rebellion, no matter how well-dressed, high-minded or spiritual the disobedience may be.

God promised to love and never leave. And it took Israel in exile more than fifty years to figure that out. Many more years, when you add the generations of disobedience that preceded exile in the first place. All that time and trauma and grief to discover that what God promised at the beginning – to Abraham, to Isaac and Jacob and Joseph and Moses – was a promise still kept to them in Babylon, when and where they thought all was lost. The same promise is still intact.

God was with them. God had always been with them. Before they were, God was. As refugees and immigrants, God still was. God wasn't going anywhere, since God always had been everywhere. God with us was the only promise God could make and keep, if God was going to make human beings free to obey or not. Human beings were made free to ruin positively everything else – and we have not disappointed, for the most part. We humans are on track to ruin creation itself.

For so long as life is good and kind to us, we have the luxury of believing ourselves to be the apple of God's eye, the center of the universe itself. But not until we lose everything we thought was evidence of our chosen-ness do we find ourselves corrected. Israel was corrected. But not in Jerusalem, try as God did through generations of prophets. Israel was corrected after the fact, in exile. Corrected in their understanding of chosenness. Chosenness was not a matter of geography and real estate, after all. THE PROMISE was a promise of presence. Not land, not wealth. Not power.

Presence. I am with you. A promise unbroken by 400 years in captivity, 40 years in the wilderness, 500 years on the land promised to them, and now in exile too. The promise holds as fast as ever. So that, in exile they found themselves with all that God had ever promised them in the first place – I AM with you – with no way to speak of it except poetry. Poetry – the language in which we tell our deepest truths, in words that make little sense at all when held in certain kinds of light.

Likewise with Genesis. The Creator God. Nesting, like expectant parents always do. Not with extra diapers and receiving blankets, but with light and dark and air and sea. With birds that fly and creatures that creep. And trees and flowers and every living thing to delight the eye and fill the belly and be our home.

"See how much God loved and wanted us!" Genesis 1 proclaims.

The point of the poetry is praise.

No infant ever came home from the hospital, looked around his nursery, and said, "I'll take it." Neither did humanity for the first few hundred years. Not until they thought they had lost it all. We thought we lost everything and discovered we only need one thing – God, the God who made us and keeps us even now.

Genesis 1 is the first page of the scriptures and the last – and every page in between on which somebody after God's own heart finds themselves in God's hands, having been there all along.​